When You Left Me (On Repeat) | ROBYN VISCO | Illustrated by Lara Flynn Gonzaga | MAKATA

Description

Sometimes, loss can feel like a time loop, where you replay and reminisce on has-beens and bygones. It’s when you meet someone new and wonder if you’ll eventually lose them too. There’s nothing worse than a time loop, because you know exactly what will happen and when it will happen. In this case, it’s getting that gut feeling of when someone or something is about to abandon you. Except, with this time loop, there are details that change with each repeat. With each repeat, you become more and more numb to the slamming of doors and breaking of wills.

In the end, there are some human experiences that not even the best of poets can capture with words. That doesn’t stop me from trying, though. With words, I can let out the bubbling mixture of emotions filling me up to the brim. You can find in my words the comfort of knowing that you are not alone. Everyone loses something, themselves, or others. What’s important is that you find your way back to square one, where you can start over. To the ones who I’ve lost — what I hate the most about you — is when you left me on repeat.